Bang bang;

ahhhhh i'm so tired:(((( 
why can't i be given free time huhhuhhuh. westlife's new album sounds AMAZING. i'm freaking serious, omg can't believe i actually like almost all the tracks. i bet it's gonna be their biggest album ever, i swearrrrrr.

and thanks wong, for the cake! i'm gonna get diabetes finishing it, but i still will! it's AWESOME. :D

what a lucky day. i had to wake up at 8 plus to go for MATH tuition. and i walked through this straight path to get there, and i felt something was chasing me. or behind me or something. i felt it. so i walked faster and fasted and then i started running a little bit and i finally look back. it's my shadow-.-

and then, i ate two curry leaves while having lunch. and i didn't know what curry leaves were so i munched and munched on them. and then i realised.

and maple's game format totally changed, it sucks now. i found out after spending 64 hours trying to download it.

what a lucky, lucky day.

halloween was awesome! well i thought it wouldn't be, since christine wasn't coming and i was like 'uhhhhhh...:/'. and it was raining, no trail of terror:( but still, it was AWESOME. taking pictures with da peeps(gotta stop my stupid gangsta slang now) and pedophile and tinman!!!!! they were awesome. and playing the racing game with molly's bro, and losing, BECAUSE HE CHEATED:@
mwahahahhaha I LOVE PEDOPHILE AND TINMAN!!!!

and of course, came saturday when i finally brought ALL my stuff. and remembered EVERYTHING. what an improvement:D

and sunday was awesome as well! kenny rogers, bowling, swensens, and vomiting, then cabbing home. bowling's awesomeeee, i pwn your asses, leanne and chloe. only to be beaten by the almighty(not) gary. and then there's the horrible $2 dare, which made me puke hell lot, again. but i got $10 anw.. and then cabbing home and reaching home 11 plus, and got scolded for taking advantage of gary's money-.- and then puking again, and falling asleep on an empty stomach.

and i'm listening to the new michael buble album, pretty awesome!:D 

ahhhhhhh awesome few days, next up: ice skating!! 

man i can't believe it, time flies like shit.(what a phrase:/) seriously, this year passed so freaking fast! it's so hard to believe! 

I LOVE YOU 2GY!!!! we're an awesome, awesome class. sure, it took me pretty long to realise that, well longer than everyone else, but still... 2GY'S AWESOME!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS! 

i can't believe it, last day of school. well the first half sucked, watching some french movie ms chow showed, while i fell asleep, and half the class as well. rushed out the brochure, then watched 17 again. i mean the day ended quite abruptly, but it was an awesome, awesome week, nevertheless.

especially thursday. SC TAKES THE STAGE! fame and we will rock you were awesome:DD and there was dancing with 2se and all, playing double whacko, duck duck goose and splat, and dancing somemore. and gangsta language! 

"Yo wassup my brutha from another mutha!" 
Yo gotta problem with me, yo? 

yeah so that was the language i spoke all day, in caps and metal chains. and the cap, which i almost lost twice, argh.

it's been an awesome, awesome year, well duh there's the not-so good parts, then there's the good parts of every year, including this year! this year's awesome, yo!(shall stop the gangsta language)

so whatever, I LOVE 2GY!:D

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

saturday night = awesome shit night.



went to timbre with wy and leanne. and overaged people to let us enter, like my bro, eunice, and venron.

first of all, AWESOME FOOD.(the mashed potato:D)

second of all, AWESOME DRINKS.(mocktails! and snowball which was ordered twice, and margarita)

thirdly, FLAMING TOWER!!!!! which meant setting a tall bottle of wine on fire and drinking up the whisky at the bottom:DDD



and a very, very awesome live band:DDDDD



awesomeawesomeawesomeawesomeawesomeawesomeawesomeawesome.



so the night was spent by camwhoring a little, eating, drinking, playing taptap(AND ME PWNING), and then the awesomeee live band came on.



and i got home at 12, completely knocked out, went to change, and slept on my mum's bed. ahhhhh awesome night.



so thanks a hell lot, my awesome brother, girlfriend eunice, bro venron, for paying for everything:D

and awesome people like wy and leanne to make the night awesome:)

"The most insecure dogs bark the most" - Coach Sabrina.

damn, it's the third time my dog's peed in the house. holy crap. and my dad says "she's dying". the thought somehow, scares me. that she's all old now, she's gonna die anytime. i may wake up tomorrow morning and find her lying in the balcony, not moving. kinda scares me now.

11 years with a dog, and now she's gonna die.

sighhh.

two things.

walking into the kitchen to get a cup of water, drank a little bit, gonna pour the rest down the sink, and i hear some weird noise moving and desperately struggling in the sink, i see the weird leg thing and realise it's a crab. it's a freaking live crab in my sink. and no, i've not seen one IN MY SINK before. and so i screamed and ran off. later to realise that it was my lunch.

secondly, my dog peed on the floor twice today. she's 11, she's dying. and so she pees on the floor. i am now scared of walking around the house. i stepped on trails of pee three times. first time was when she peed for the first time. second time was the second time. third time was after washing my leg, i walk back into the same trail of pee.

just my deserts for leaving her outside the house for 2 hours because i was too preoccupied playing my comp. that happened yesterday, my dog sure knows how to bear grudges.

one more thing.
X FACTOR FIRST LIVE SHOW TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
olly murs, olly murs, olly murs!!!!!!!!:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

and an extremely packed day on monday. lunching, dare-ing, music shopping, movie renting, ice skating, thanksgiving, movie-ing, sleepover-ing. mwahahahhahahahahah. oh i forgot, all this stuff happens are EXAM-ING. how exciting.

it's actually going well. i can't believe i'm saying this but for once in my life, i'm actually prepared for an exam. seriously, this feels like psle. like i seriously have to do well or something, since i screwed up ca1 and 2.

and now's only the afternoon, i actually feel as if i've nothing to study. i can't believe it. the word "nothing else to study" is not a though that has ever been in my mind. and now it is!

ahhhhhhhh relieved.

well uhmmm complete waste of time. i've watched 4 movies in 2 days. how pathetic.

on a happier note, i was the pianist at the children's day church service thingy. and how long has it been since i've played church songs or was the church pianist. oh wait, june. i mean still, nice feeling and all. and the kids are so cute! felt a lot better after that, watching them dance and sing gayly and everything.

sighhh i'm hooked on random movie watching, i swear. gonna kill myself for eoys.. proud of myself though, finished the whole geog book besides agriculture(eww).

ahhhh in a boring and sleepy mood. still watching movies. this one's called "chasing liberty". i've watched "She's all that", "A walk to remember", "Odd Girl out". ah well.

*bangs head*. seriously, someone kill me before enya's music does!!! omfg why am i still listening to enya?!?!?! IT'S SUICIDAL MUSIC, I'M TELLING YOU! like, like the kind of stuff that motivates you to die. how can people find her voice angelic and her music soothing. it's disturbing, dark and everything that makes me unhappy. CULT MUSIC.

i am gonna kill myself, i swear. Especially after listening to "Athair Ar Neamh". whywhywhy do i listen to enya then. i actually don't know. it seriously kills me. thus, me writing a death story for the free writing topic "Freedom" during lang arts. seriously, i spent 350 words talking about the last 2 minutes before i die. no flashbacks, no nothing of that crap. just the process of dying.

i'm serious, enya's music is making me suicidal and psycho. whywhywhywhywhywhy am i listening to her.

*calms self down*
today i spent $7.80 on cab fare. well i spent $7, kim was alighting somewhere near, so she contributed 80 cents. and it was the most nerve wrecking ride ever, we thought we wouldn't have enough money. we were like 200m away from destination and it suddenly turned to $7.80 and we were like shit, don't turn to $8. so it didn't. phewwww. well, some stuff happened during the week. i forgot.

Athair Ar Neamh

i'm just disheartened. and i just don't know. saturday syndrome, perhaps. saturdays with mtdc just isn't going well. or rather, it's going well. it's my trombone playing that isn't. and i'm simply going about in circles, and just when i thought i'm improving, someone always manages to affect me, be it petty or not. and people always tend to disregard my feelings, and the fact that i'm sensitive too.
eeeks okay whatever.

yayyyyy bro's coming back from brunei forest training tomorrow!!!!:DDDDDD finallllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

other than that nothing nice has happened today. no studying.(sighhhhhh), watching tyra banks interviews with yam, and the two adees/adi. those weird screwed american porn stars:/

uhmmmmm well tomorrow's mtdc. fly me to the moon!

OMG I SUDDENLY REMEMBERED SOMETHING THAT HAD BEEN BUGGING ME FOR AGES.

whenever i'm at the traffic light, i press the button. it lights up, meaning i pressed it. but OBVIOUSLY, you have to wait for the damn traffic light to turn green, it doesn't turn green instantly does it, it runs by a bloody system. and people after waiting for a short while, will also press the button, and keep pressing. WHAT'S THE EFFING POINT?!?!?! is it gonna turn green just cause you're pressing it more.

so today, walking home from the bus-stop i alighted, i stopped at the same traffic light. pressed the same button. and waited. a few meters away from me was a guy who after FIVE BLOODY SECONDS of waiting, said 'excuse me', walked pass me and punched the button multiple times, furiously. i'm like _I_. so it's gonna turn green cause you smashed the bloody button eh.

bunch of idiots. dammit man. arghhhhhhhhhh.

oooh my mum has finally learnt how to put words in her msn pm. coool.

i've suddenly started studying. and i feel so much happier! like  yesterday, got home at like 6 plus, used the comp till 8 plus(watching the tyra banks show, her interviewing some 14-year old porn star:O), wong and ada reminded to "get the fuck off the comp" as quoted from ada. and so it felt like the bravest step ever, completely shutting off the comp. turning off my phone. shifting all my work to my parents room and studying infront of them so if i get distracted they'll tell me to shut up.

and i was in such a good mood! i didn't snap at my mum at all, and i wasn't the least bit annoyed with anyone at home. and i allowed my mum to force me to read the chinese article thingy. and i willingly studied till 10.30pm. doesn't seem very late does it, well it is to me. to study till that hour. or to even study. so yesterday everyone in the family was happy happy.

i'm gonna keep this up. i finally think so. FINALLY. and i feel a lot neater. and better. feels like my life is getting into place, finally!

well besides that nothing much has been happening, besides a hell lot of shit bugging the crap outta me. but oh well, i shall save that for some other time.

and did i say, I HAVE TO GET MY ANT AND DEC AUTOBIOGRAPHY!! it's coming out in like...3 days.. oh wait 2 dayss!! and i HAVE to get it. meanwhile, i'm watching the michael buble meets madison square garden dvd again. for the third time. ahhhhhh michael buble.

AND I'M COOKING MY OWN FRIES!!:D

ahhhh so much happier now that i've actually gotten down to do some work. after a whole year of screwing around.

and i think i'm gonna quit livejournal-ing.

okay whatever the title is, i'm learning how to play the guitar!!!! i started yesterday, i'm kinda failing... but it's okay! i'm learning online,. which is pretty...weird. my fingers hurt but it's all cool. and fun!!:D i'm gonna get new strings for the acoustic guitar lying at home, i've been playing the electric one since yesterday but it's so difficult! and the amp. isn't working anyway, i'll have to wait for my dad to get back to ask him about that:/
YAY FOR LEARNING HOW TO PLAY THE GUITAR!
next in line: saxophone and drums and double bass! 
sheeesh so many things to learn. but as i said before, better than wanting to learn nothing.

ahhh today's a day with THREE tuitions. had chinese in the morning, the last one(phewwww). then i'm going for piano now. after piano there's physics/chem/whatever. what the hell is this!! 

i'm all happy now, and i'm failing to learn 'march' and the 'sugarplum fairy' song thingy. no patience. no time!! spending all of it on the guitarrrr.

oh and yesterday went to the library with dorcas to study.(well it kinda worked, after scouting around for seats for 1 hour). so from 3pm, we studied till 7pm+, well she did. i was reading this weird book called 'love, stargirl' which was just uhmmm okay, then i studied for about an hour or so.
 
so dorcas saw her friend jia en who came over and kept bugging the shit out of us. then i realised she looked familiar. and i was like 'hmmmm, who's she'. and after an hour of bugging, the name 'jia en' rang in my head. and i asked 'JIA EN! DID YOU GO TO KOREA?!' and she was like 'huh?? ohh yeah i think pri.4 that time' then i was like 'which primary school are you from?' and she said 'townsville' and i went 'OMGGGGGG. I'M CHERYL!!!! i was on the tour group with you in korea!!' and we went screaming and babbling in the library. and talking about how awesome korea was.

ahhhh what a small world... why do such coincidences only happen to me like once or twice while other people(esp. the one with weird hair) seem to be meeting all her long lost friends.

so yesterday, it's been exactly one year since we've graduated from jbf. and i was sooo proud to see our juniors on that same stage we were on one year ago, ROCKING THE HOUSE DOWN!!! i'm sooo proud of them and i went screaming like crazy, scjuniorband '09 sooo rocked the house down.

valerie, carlyn, wangyun, and linh, i'm so happy for you guys!!! you guys have come a seriouslyyyyy long way and improved so much.

well, one year off from junior band. how does it feel like... terribly nostalgic. i remember how much fun we had in junior band pracs, with mr lameass desouza. and french horns and tbones would always ended making a freak shit load of noise without getting scolded. or how desouza never turned up for our band pracs and we would get pissed off. and how we alwaysss requested to play big fun. from hating beyond to loving it, then hating blue ridge and wanting to play beyond to loving blue ridge, then hating big fun and wanting to play blue ridge, to loving all three songs. and how we freaked out together a few minutes before we went on stage, i sooooo love the whole junior band experience.
and it's been one year already.

so went early in the morning to help out, was in charge of fuhua. chloe and i kept pleading with kai for pioneer but that obviously didn't happen:( so yeahhh fuhua isn't bad either, besides stupid girl shi jin. and gary was the auntie with a hell lot of sweets in his bag and calling me like 10 times. then wong and i were like so proud of pioneer, they actually sound okay!!!:D and of course, the screaming like hell and me going psycho singing 'i feel pretty' with leanne. oh and seeing zhenyee and siping in the amk macs! what a coincidence..

yeahh so i went home half-dead, but still, I LOVE SCBAND!

hahaha how long have i been talking about killing myself? so often that it's a habit now.



honours' day rehearsal suckeddddd! why did i even bother staying back. goddamit and i received my physics test, i bet it's lowest in the level or something, bloody hell.



STUDY CHERYL STUDY! why do i never study! so i'm gonna start studying from 7-8, 9-10. fair enough? i'll come back reading this tomorrow and laughing at myself for the fact that no i did not study. but let's see then.



STUDY CHERYL STUDY! so you can do gay stuff after eoys, which includes movie marathon, thanksgiving, food tasting, toys r us-ing, and swee lee-ing!!!!



arghhhh.

I DIDN'T GO TO SCHOOL TODAY!:DDDDD AND THERE'S NO SCHOOL TOMORROW EITHER!!!! 
yayyyyyyy a two days break! then there's crappy wednesday, honour's day, and crappy friday. and then it's jbffffff.(cool, one year passes fast, i'm not performing anymore, but helping out now!) and then there's philwinds concert on sunday(FREE TICKETS! i'm a cheapo).

NO SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. isn't that good actually, i tend to get myself into a lot of shit by doing stupid stuff. but still! and i played sims till my comp hanged twice. watched music and lyrics again, part of ps i love you(the first half) and a little bit of casino royale again. that is how much i achieve when i don't go to school for a day.

feels like i have to go to school tomorrow, but no! NO SCHOOL TOMORROW.

happy, happy, happy. hyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyper.